Everyone comes into a new year hoping it will be better, and that is good, but the future you are looking for actually looks like the past, because Jesus is the beginning and the end. When you cannot explain what God is doing, that is not a problem; it is the sign that He is calling on your faith, because if you could understand it, no faith and no relationship would be required. His word to you is not an obligation but a sharing of identity, telling you whose you are. There are only two things to do: begin whatever He told you to do, and then keep beginning.